Went to my primary care quack today for my monthly check under the hood.
As quacks go, he's a real prince among the usual frogs of the profession.

He had some good news and some bad news. My blood pressures are still holding steady at only slightly above "normal", so no changes in the meds for now....then came the sledgehammer...seems my blood sugars are averaging over 450 and my last A1C was 8.4...so the pills weren't doing the job, and I have to start an Insulin regimen...I have to start with 10 units a night and increase it 3 to 5 units every Friday until my morning fasting tests average 130 or below.

BUMMER!

See, I have this little problem with needles, I don't merely dislike them, they are one of the two major phobias I have (the other is heights).
Yes, I know Insulin needles are ultra fine, and don't really cause any real discomfort, much less real pain, but the reason they call them phobias is because they are totally unreasonable reaction(s) to a certain stimuli.

Well, I self administered my first injection at 2300 hrs. Only took me three minutes to build up the nerve to plunge the needle in my thigh.... Totally NO real pain whatsoever...but the resulting nervous reaction lasted over twenty minutes...shaking like an Aspen tree in an Oklahoma prairie wind; sweating and gasping like a marathoner just off a major race.
Yep, this regimen is gonna be real fun all right. I can only hope repetition will cause the overreactions to diminish with familiarity over time.

It's highly embarrassing to have to admit to such a piddly fear with all the REAL terror and pain going on in every day the world,but it's very real to me. I will overcome this mini-dragon that has entered my life. I really have no choice, after all. Sounds melodramatic, but it really is a matter of life and death.

Maybe I'll tackle that fear of high places while I'm at it...taking an injection while balancing on a tall pole, that would make the injection seem minor to the danger of going "splat"!

My next appoint is scheduled on , you guessed it, Friday, March 13..Doc has a real sense of humor..I just hope that it won't be more unlucky news on that day.

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